Sunday, January 11, 2009

unwell heart, mind, and soul

Sick...sIck...siCk...sicK! you must be very curious how come i have 4 words of SICK? wanna know why? each word indicates 4 of my ss sweeties---Nanzi, Ying, Panda, and me...all of us have been beaten down by the very scary sorethroat, fever, running nose and all other illnesses that u can think of. but i think its special in my case, cause i don't have sorethroat or running nose,but fever, terrible headache, waist pain, feel wanna vomit all the time and so on...my whole body is like separate into 2 parts!!

really feel bad in this few days, no motivation, my brain is in unconcious condition, very blur, waist pain causes me can't even stand straight! what a bad day!!

i have been so healthy in the past year 2008, thinking that its gonna be as healthier as the past, but in the end...see what im now, lying on the bed the whole day, no appetite to eat, stomach spinning all the time, like something gonna come out frm my throat...thats really bad feeling, i don't want like that,i want to recover, i want my normal healthy body back so badly!!

Its the 2nd week of 2009, i wouldn't say its very smooth and peace, yet something which i think is big happened in my daily life. I'm not gonna explain it in detail, cause i think its not a good idea to reveal my family rumour to the whole world...anyway, i've learnt a very good and precious lesson in this particular matter, which baby called it as small matter or misunderstanding. thank you so much to Auntie Evelyn, Auntie Emily and of cause my baby as well who have lectured me so much.

so sad to say that one of my life counsellor--Auntie Emily and her family are leaving to London today, 2 months Asia trip is off. I'm a bit regret that i did not spend much time with them, cause i have to cope with my studies, f---ing lame assignment! wuu...wuu..pls..pls...can the time just stop spinning 1 minute... 1 hour... 1 day...so that i can spend more time with them. It sounds a bit unreality, right? Time wouldn't stop unless its the end of the world. wake up elaine....no dreaming anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!
well, they are leaving tonight at 9pm flight, wish them all the best in their journey...too bad i can't send them cause i have to work...i'll probably only see them at the end of this year...im gonna miss you, Auntie Emily, Gabriel, and Uncle Darren.
a big disappointment, they are not going to be with us during CNY, cause Gabriel is going to start school this year, and they not able to stay until that time...anyway, we will wait for next year.
Goodbye, and I'll see you soon in Dec 2009...promise to come back,ok?

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