Well well well...its so familiar yet so far.
Couldn't believe that i've abandoned my blog for AGES!!! Please allow me to apologise to all my caring and dearing friend for not keeping them update with my life.
Oh god, having skipped blogging for soooo many months makes me suck in my writing skill. I can't even begin with an apropriate introduction!! However, since I'm so in the mood to blog, nothing gonna stop me and yet I really do have something to share.
Everything in my life happened so dramatically over the pass few weeks. Couldn't recall which happen first and which scene causes the next. For me , indeed a very dizzy life, in a glimpse of eyes...
My house is gonna turn into a new "leaf". The family has decided to refurbish the house, give it a new feature, hoping it would lead us into a new luck and destiny! That's the tradition of chinese. It sounds good that we are going to have a new way of life eventually, it all turns into a huge fight between me...alone and sisters and mom!
Speaking of fight..normally people would think maybe is just some idea conflict and it can soon be taking care of.....unfortunately, this is a BIG BIG one!!
Everytime when I thought of those fighting scene i felt so heartache, I really don't know who actually started it or shall not say who but the emotion, the ability to control emotion was the fact to cause the fight. Another thing which caused my heartache into a deep down hole, the fight involved my beloved boyfriend. This was where i can't hold my temper anymore in front of the family. How could they say something so unfair after all what he had done to us and the family! How can someone has so stingy thought to someone who treat her so well all these while!! How could a 16 year old girl couldn't behave like an adult, think like an adult...well grow up into more mature lady at the very least!! pheww...I know its rude having me spreading all my sister's mistakes so publicly, but seriously no offense.
After all these fighting drama I never felt angry but relief. It was a precious lesson that I learnt how to treat my family in a better way but not the way I used to be, harsh and impatient.
It was another great opportunity to move both our relationship a step forward. Together we hold hand, faced and fixed every single problem that show up without sign in our journey, and after all these, we enjoy happily with the outcome. No matter its a happy ending or a bad consequence, we knew that its all the progress and commitment that count.
Dear Kit, its my pleasure to have a man like you, I really hope I can do more to convince myself that I deserve more of your love.
I will never stop treasuring the new life, I will not dwell in the past mistakes, I will work harder to earn what i deserve to have...and lets all start with a new hope.
Have a nice dream everyone.
