讽刺的 亲 。人

晚上睡不着，想说来这儿分享一些心里话。。。

今晚男朋友弃我而去和朋友狂欢，留下我不知该做什么好，只好跟妹妹无聊没事跑到新开张的TESCO逛逛过时间，接着在去朋友家接妹妹回家。途中聊到一些问题。。。

坦白说，我一直都相信亲人之间是不会有摩擦的，至少晚辈分的人，不会有好像长辈们的那种明争暗斗。。。但原来我错了，就算只是个小女生也会在亲戚朋友间学是非！！

由于这个月家里发生太多不愉快的事，牵扯的人和事太多；促使我对家人和亲人之间的那种信任，渐渐消失。。。

很多事其实一早已经看清楚也警觉得到，只是当时不想把这世界想得那么恶劣，总是相信总有一天会划得开，人会走出误会的阴霾。。。但是我又错了。。。

回想以前对人的态度，我真的觉得自己像个傻瓜！人家明着对你存有偏见，在你背后窃窃细语；可我这个傻瓜不管明的暗的都尽力帮他们说好话，不去想他们的坏！！

我把所有事想得美好一点，我错了吗？
我对人的好，到头来又换到了什么？

跟 T 先生谈到了一些问题，大致上都得到了满意的回应，还有一些小部分。。。
但也不急于一时，凡是总得慢慢来。
在 FB 看到这样一句话，忍不住就把它quote起来 ^.~

“别把对你衷心的弹簧压得太紧，小心反弹时而接不住失去了”

p/s : due to the connection failed in live space, I have no choice but to post something very emo and offensive here...couldn't bear this feeling anymore!

thinking out of my mind

Still at the midst of figuring out something that I'm not really familiar with...in spite craving hard for the solution, I desperately need some other stuff to move away my attention. Knowing the fact that I have nothing to do beside blogging so here I come, sitting still, typing, editing, and typing again, and editing again...
and the samething goes on for rest of the minutes, until...

*spark* *spark*

something flow through my mind which eventually sparked me some idea to continue writing this post. Though I've wrote this in my fb wall but I'm gonna talk a little bit about this again in detail, well, not a thousand words detail...just slightly more than in fb, haha!

It was a pity story though, that my grandpa was admitted to the hospital since last week in Monday. Although I wasn't sure wth was he being admitted but the fact that he was already very old and suffering with diabetes and the fact that his health condition was getting worse day by day really terrifies me. Spent the whole afternoon in TMC waiting for grandpa to come out from the operating theatre, also, to keep grandma accompany, she must have been worry sick :s
I can easily see her face fills with pain and sorrow, poor ah ma :s

Half way through waiting in the ward, I couldn't help but imaginig someday in future when grandpa is no longer around us*touch wood...touch wood*, what's gonna happen and how will all of us cope with it? That's a big question mark deep down in my heart. I know its not the right time to think something impossible now but its better to be prepared rather than unprepare, am I right?! Hopefully that I get to spend more time with him, our relationship wasn't that bad after all...we went dinner together every weekend, chit-chatting, sharing humour and jokes..oh, my grandpa always has very strong sense of humour ^.~
and I'm very proud to say that we are far more interactive than anyone else in the families...anyone!!

"ah gong, hope you get well soon and leave the crazy place as soon as possible, may god bless you! I sitll wanna go dinner with you, heee^^"

xTuple...kill me please!!!

Good night people. Till then.

BE STRONG

Spotted this meaningful phrase from my table calendar...it reminds me the scene that happened in the same month as appear in the calendar, which really pissed me off!!

and to be frank, I was really upset at that moment till I have that kind of harm-those-dummy-back-who-harmed-me thought, reverberating my mind all the time...

I was lucky to have my baby, by my side to clam me, to sooth my anger down, also non-stop telling me the same thing like I discovered in my table calendar...he sing me all the time about this, not until I let go my dirty thought.

Check out the words in the balloon...by now you should have some clue on how bad my thought was!

Bet someone will begin to rejudge my personality as I often present myself with innocent and everything-is-non of my business-look, nobody actually knows that I have all the cruel thought when I'm unhappy with someone or something,HAHA!!

Well, Im not trying to scare anyone off, but its normal that evryone will ever come into that situation, no big deal. It just depends on how serious an individual think of it. What I've learnt from this lesson was that people must always be rasional and positive at all thing, you must be able to analyse what is worth your effort, do not give a shit to those dummie who has nothing to do in your life.

By believing in these I'm eventually a stronger person in life!!

Baby always told me to "BE STRONG"

"BE STRONG

"BE STRONG"

kids language

Had this conversation with my smart little cousin yesterday...

I was viewing on my bf's new uploaded photos in fb, and the smart little one blurt out something that i never expect from her age...she goes:

KX: wei jie gor gor hen handsome oh!! (say with loud and witty face)
me: ni zhi dao shen me shi handsome meh?
KX: zhi dao~~~handsome shi leng zai lor...hen mei lor...hao kan lor...
me: woah...shi meh? na me ni de daddy leng zai ma? didi leng zai ma?
KX: leng zai~~~~~ (eyes raising high up teehee!)
me: na me ni leng zai ma??
KX: wo shi girl lai de arr, bu shi boy!! (said defensively)
me: ohh...na me girl yao jiao shen me??
KX: enn........(thinking wisely)leng.....leng lui lor!!!
me: ..................

p/s: read the conversation in chinese, more funny,ha!!


totally defeated!!