i have lots of word, idea lingerred in my mind and i couldn't find the best way to part each of them together into a right sentence. today has been a sweet yet bitter day for me as something good and bad happened together which nearly cause my heart stop beating on and off.
remember i've once said that it really irritates me when it comes to the situation of making choices.every single minute in life you never stop making decision like what to dress up today to school, what to eat during lunch with friend,how much should i spent today,what is my budget for shopping spree,what kind of job should i consider in the future,blablabla...is like doing some sort of MCQs during exam you know..
i always brought up this issue with baby whenever we both meet together(its our popular topic) or whenever each of us feel up set with our life.having said that, baby is my life lecturer or even precise, life consultant who really..umm,change me, persue me, brain wash me,from an innocent girl into more maturity stage which i would say, with all his life philosophy.
as far as i've concerned, there are people who treats life in a very different way with different attitude.
#POSITIVE,HAPPY GO LUCKY
this indicate those people who live rather a simple life,easy to be pleased and people who has no strong demand and expectation in their life. they rarely make choices because sometimes decision that have been made may screw thing up. not roller cooster lifestyle,but normal and ordinary life is what they are up to.
they are the white flag holder, promote peace and prevent war.
it sounds good to remain silent in most of the time, but we do need to grab the opportunity to strive for what we are deserve.
#NEGATIVE, WORRY ONE-SELF FOR NOTHING
these people are probably talented brain- stormer as they always have lots of thought in their mind which may lead them to a very negative extent.there are also people who finds very difficult to be satisfied but actually they have owned what other people desired.
people from this category are the red flag holder, who always promote fight, competition,wanted to prove themselves at the very top position.
well,its really unhealthy in this case, unfortunately if you find yourself people from this category, try to make thing out, reconcile this situation, perhap you'll find a better tomorrow.
yet, another decision to be made!!
#CHANCE-LESS, END OF THE JOURNEY
it may sound shame for people who has chance to make decision but do not make use of it compare to people whose life has come to an end,struggling to live,defeating sickness, no choice but to sacrifice. a piece of paper to certified the end of life, they don't even have time to say the last word, do whatever thing they wanted to,only struggling to death.
a sudden damn bloody illness cause a patient to be admitted to the hospital, given chance and hope.struggling for the stupid unreality chance or whatever hope, in the end, there isn't anything worth to be struggle.
(i guess this could explain my bitter of the day)
upon all these, i've finally realize that how stupid and shallow i was used to be.
bear in mind that, there is always an alternative, too insist may make life more difficult.
as for me, i've recently came to a situation which bother me for quite some time...well, i took the alternative instead of making choice...wanna know my secret of alternative???